Wednesday, April 23, 2014

I'm Here, But No Spanking For Awhile

I am here friends. This will be a short note, but I at least want you to know that I'm still here. AND I still plan to answer all of your lovely questions. I guess March questions will become answers for May's blogs! I hope to find some time to get to them. Life has been very busy and we've struggled a bit with TTWD, which has robbed me of motivation to find time. That being said, I miss all of you. I miss reading your blogs and commenting and otherwise engaging with my TTWD family and hope to get back to that before too long. I miss sharing my thoughts and concerns and receiving lovely support. So please know that I'm still here, just in the background a bit while we get through some busy times.

I also have to share a few things. I don't know how many of you remember that I was accepted into graduate school for this fall and received a graduate assistantship that waives my tuition. Well, it looks like I may not be going. I just think it will be a bit much with a new little one joining our home late December/ early January. Yes, you heard me right. We are expecting a bundle of joy. This will be our third love. I'm over the moon excited. Of course it throws a wrench in the graduate school plans, but if I had to choose between graduate school and a baby I'd definitely choose a baby. Several have asked me why I don't juggle both. Honestly, I don't want to. The school I was planning to attend is an hour away. So with commuting, working 13 hours a week for the assistantship, attending classes, and studying, I don't see how I'd keep my sanity with two kiddos and a newborn who all need my attention. I am still going to close the daycare. I'm honestly beyond excited about the idea of being a stay at home mom to my kiddos. I've never been able to do that and it's always something I've wanted to do. Graduate school will still be there when my kiddos are older.

Anyways, Captain once said that if I ever get pregnant spanking is off the table. I don't think spanking would hurt our little one, but having experienced pregnancy loss before, I think that we always err on the side of caution. This ought to be interesting. My hormones will be all over the place and spanking will be off the table. So we will have to be creative. This will also be a good time for me to really work hard at my ability to keep myself in check and be respectful towards Captain. I'm hoping that when the stress of the business goes away I will naturally get a bit better at those things, but time will tell.

Anyways, I'm here. I will try to stay in touch as much as I can. But please know that if you only hear from me once in awhile, things are going to be less busy down the road and I will at some point become more accessible and involved once again!