Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Signing Off

I think we've come to the end of the road with this. We experimented. We learned more about ourselves, our needs, our desires, what works for us, and what doesn't work for us. I don't think we "failed." I think this is just not the right dynamic for our relationship.

I've had so much change in my life recently. There are so many in this community that I've enjoyed getting to know, ladies that I wanted to catch up with, ladies who've birthed babies this year and I wanted to check in with, and it's just not happening.

But what I want to say is thank you. Thank you for welcoming me, encouraging me, walking with me for even the short time that this was. I needed encouragement, support, reassurance, and hope that things could improve and you ladies gave me that.

We are returning to a more egalitarian dynamic. I'm not sure that my husband is crazy about the fact that we're not pursuing this any further, but I definitely think that it was making things a lot worse. Whether it's that we have the wrong personalities, too many issues, or whatever it may be, this doesn't work for us. I am planning to continue to work on my relationship with my husband. And there are lessons I can take with me. Not every argument is worth having. Sometimes it's better to keep my mouth shut until his rant is over. Sometimes it's good for him to take the lead. So I don't feel that we are going back to an old dynamic, but moving forward into a different dynamic that will hopefully incorporate some of the lessons that I've learned by participating in this community.

Thank you and I sincerely wish you all the very best!